What Is a Spiritual Awakening: A Quiet Shift in Understanding God
A Spiritual awakening doesn’t always come through deep meditation or divine revelations.
Sometimes it shows up when you’re sweeping the floor.
Or slicing into a watermelon.
Or standing in your garden with your hands in the dirt, finally quiet enough to receive what’s already been whispering.
That’s how this insight came to me, not from a book or a pulpit, but from a still moment while doing something ordinary. And what I heard… shifted something big.
I realized I no longer see God as a man in the sky.
What feels more honest, more true, is this:
God is the perfect balance of divine masculine and feminine energy.
Not a father. Not a ruler. But a harmony, one that we are all capable of reaching within ourselves as we evolve.
What We Were Taught
If you grew up in church like I did, you probably know the classic trio:
The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
And for many of us, that language stuck, even if we didn’t understand it.
It was presented as holy, mysterious, and above us. Something external. Something unreachable unless we prayed hard enough or behaved just right.
But over time, I began to question…
Why does this model always place the power outside of us?
Why are we taught to look up, instead of in?
A Shift in MY Perspective: Ego, Higher Self, and the Observer
As I’ve grown, healed, and become more aware of myself, not just spiritually, but emotionally, a new pattern started to reveal itself. And now, it’s the only trinity I can see because once something this profound is revealed to you, it becomes impossible to unsee it.
Let me break it down:
1. The Ego Self
This is the version of us that’s loudest early in life. It’s the part that craves, defends, protects, competes, proves. It’s not evil, it’s just human. The ego helps us survive, but it struggles to help us evolve. Over time, it doesn’t disappear, but it quiets.
2. The Higher Self
This is the part of us that whispers instead of shouts. It nudges us toward compassion, purpose, alignment. The more we heal, the more we hear it. It speaks in peace, in knowing, in gentle redirection.
3. The Observer
This one surprised me.
It’s the watcher.
It’s the version of you that notices yourself in real time.
Not judging, not correcting, just witnessing with love.
I'd find myself doing something and suddenly think or say out loud,
“Girl… what are you doing?”
And it didn't feel like criticism, it felt like awareness. Like a part of me was seeing my own life with calm clarity. And once I noticed that voice, I started hearing it more often.
It wasn't the ego. It wasn't even the higher self.
It was the Observer.
And I believe it only shows up once you’ve spent enough time living as your higher self.
From Worship to Embodiment
The more I reflect, the more I realize:
This shift in my perspective is not separate from the old one, it’s a reframing.
- The Son becomes the Ego, the part of us that experiences life as a human being.
- The Holy Spirit becomes the Higher Self, the guide that flows through us and connects us to truth.
- The Father becomes the Observer, the all-seeing awareness that watches with quiet, sacred love.
Except now, it’s not above us.
It’s within us. It empowers us.
Because when you grow up being taught that everything holy is outside of you, a Father you must please, a Spirit you must chase, a Son you must be saved by, it can make you feel small. Dependent. Unworthy. Always waiting on something greater to intervene.
You start to believe that divinity is something you can only worship, never embody.
But this shift, this quiet turning inward gives the power back.
It says: You are not separate from the sacred.
The divine isn’t a reward for being good.
It’s your true nature, once the noise settles.
And when you begin to live from that place…when your ego softens, your higher self leads, and your Observer gently awakens, you stop searching for God in the sky.
Because you’ve finally realized:
God is what you become when you are fully, beautifully in balance.
And maybe that’s what spiritual growth really is:
Not rising higher but returning deeper.
Not praying louder but listening closer.
Not seeking God but becoming the balance of God.
Pause for a moment and ask yourself:
What if the God I've been praying to… has been quietly waiting inside me this whole time?